[gLitterbug]

Steven, I don�t think you meant me with your reply in the already closed topic, because I didn�t say all lumental members should be ashamed. But I care about what people think of me and therefore I want to say some things in response to your reply there.

I hope nobody feels like I�m flaming or so, I don�t want to flame, I just tell you all my thoughts about all that and I would talk to you in real life and tell you my thoughts about all that right into your face.
Unfortunately it is not really possible for me to travel to anybody.

I really would like to say that maybe others hide behind their nicknames but I don�t. I�ll give you my address, phone number and all that if you want to. It�s just easier to talk on icq and MUCH cheaper, it�s the only possibility for me too get to know people in different countries.

I know it�s very difficult to keep calm in the current situation and not swear at others, but I think that has no use.

As I said in the other topic, I�m a person who gives people nearly all chances they want, to change their impression I have of them, but I would like to have that right too. I don�t know too much people who give others the chance to clear things up if they were seriously hurt or accused of something or similar, but I think that would be something that many people should try.

I think the comparison I�ve made really strikes some people, but I wanted to say that I�ve never accused somebody of BEING a Nazi, I just wanted to make people aware of what impressions others could get of them by the way they handled things.
For example I wanted to make Snake Grunger know that his parole gave me the shivers, because it would be possible that he wasn�t aware of what conclusions people could draw out of such statements. I don�t appreciate such Paroles and similar shit and if Snake Grunger meant it in a certain way, I don�t think I could become a good friend of him, but if he didn�t mean it in that way and wasn�t really aware of what he said and just put too little thought in it before he wrote it and he cares to change the impression I got, then he gets the chance to do it.

I�m more than happy if someobody likes to talk to me on ICQ or so. Regardless wether its an arstist of your calibre Steven or an amateurish one like me. Because that it�s why I came to sijun, not only to improve but to get new friends. I would like to meet them in real life for sure, but thats not possible for me

PS to Enayla for closing the other thread:
How could anybody hate you for that? But I know how you feel, I always think that somebody doesn�t like me because of something I�ve said and doesn�t tell it to me.

[Steven Stahlberg]

Hey, no worries, no I don't think it was you I was thinking of, damn my bad memory, I could go back to check but what's the point... I remember reading it somewhere. Never mind.

I don't feel like you flamed me at all, I'm not angry with you or anything, I totally understand all your bad feelings. I remember over a decade ago I suffered through something similar but much more personal, directed at me personally... I know what it feels like. And I had no idea when I accepted the invitation, that others would feel like that about Lumental.