[DrBof]

im here i went away but im back
hello jess hello Count Zero hello Spitfire hello shizo hello all
ive been away contemplateing everything
and have come back with nothning more than guilt and pain
i must seem quite a dipressing person all i come here to do is outlet myself
i can't really do it on my home page no more beacuse t omany people i know read it (or could read it) and that wasn't the point

through rims of blue i see,
a world that is not a part of *me*,
my shroud of hair,
a cross i choose bear,
hide my self from the world beond,
so cold in the world,
cold...


[This message has been edited by DrBof (edited June 06, 2000).]

[Spitfire]

Hey buddy, no hard feelings dude *hugz*

A period of reflection is allways good...

[Jess]

*sniff* *sniff* I know, I often do the same. It's ok though, I tend to be a bit depressing as well. I am not miserable though. I have a great family who I love so much. Sometimes I'm just down. It's everything outside of my home that gets me upset. Just today I had a conversation w/ a friend of mine that really got to me. Now I'll be upset about the subject for weeks. I'm sick of all the sickness. I wish I could eliminate all of the hurt and pain.

[DrBof]

my GF moved in w/ me then started scrooing me somming chronick(spelling?) she lies(prooven) cheets(suspected) and steels(prooven) and im soo tired i lost my flat and my flat mate got sacked and im hungery (need a sarni) and my headphones broke on top of that ive been bad...
but u peeps r so loverly
*hug* *sniff*
all i want is another body within arms reach i don't like sleeping alone but i got no choice @ the moment
shes the only thing that makes me unhappy
i lub u guys

[Spitfire]

Weeeeee now we're getting all mushy and cuddly.

GROUP HUG!!!

[Jess]

Poor DrBof, I hope you got rid of her. It's no good having someone around who you can't trust. Especially if she's steelin from you. Surely you will find someone better. *pats on the back*

[Nex]

This may sound stupid because this is just a message forum... I don't know you personally and such things are always better eye to eye but what I wanted to say is that you've got some people here who care, even if they don't know you personally.

If you feel like you want to talk, I would listen.

Heads up, climb out of old memories and build a new foundament on them.. one that even storms cannot shatter.

[Count Zero]

Hey there...
Not much I can say to make you feel better, but just know/remember that we are here for you.


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[DrBof]

aww your all so good to me
*sniff*
cheers bud

im not going through a depressive cycle or nothin...im a fairly chilled person and other than her im fine (no spite intended) i just got nowhere to live

going to glastombry thou and i have posted a exibition on my (still unfinneshed) website http://www.cnrufc.co.uk/funk



[This message has been edited by DrBof (edited June 08, 2000).]

[Spitfire]

I tend to go through cycles of depression. It's quite nice cause it gives me an excuse to get totally plastered...

[DrBof]

u need a excuse to get blatted ?!?

[Spitfire]

Well, to get so wasted that i have an excuse to talk nonsense, yes.

[DrBof]

that one of my favorate hobbies
i go out and i talk cod-shit to compleat strangers

[Spitfire]

It works great... just dont try it with nice girls that sport suddenly-appearing not-so-nice sportschool-loving boyfriends.

[DrBof]

hehe

[Jess]

wow that was interesting. You guys had a whole conversation there.

I'm still astounded and amazed that we are all able to comunicate at the speed of light (or your modem) with people all over the world. It's so great.

I'm fiddling with a new design. I'm frustrated Bof! #$$$@&$%(#@ What do I do?

-Jessica-

[Spitfire]

Jessica,

The concept & colors are really cool, but there is a definite lack of balance. The way the menu is now is kinda, well, distracting. It might be nice to incorporate the menu in the pictures somehow. Mouseover-fx in photographs tend to look really slick. Nice pics by the way, i like the cropping.

P.s. You look really...ehm...evil

[DrBof]

i love the disign it's so clean yet soft
the pitures remind me of chipped and flaking paintwork on the side of grounded boats on sunny pebble beachs it's probobly the colouration (the light is so crap here it's next to imposible to get that kind of viberance in photos)
the only things that bothered me was the the contact link i would move it to the menu
and the is the heading suposed to say "nuolear" (if so, just out of curiosity, why?) (my god that may well have been correct use of grammor!?!!?)

[Spitfire]

"GrammOr"?

[kurisu]

"Speeling?"

[Mr Weasel]

Anyone need a shriek ?I'm a shriek....i mean was a shriek before i realized all my patients killed themselves....

[Jess]

hehehe

I think I got the layout doing better. Still working on it. I think that's the way the 'c's come out in that font, I'll have to check it out tho, cuz I didn't take notice of it. I'm mad now cuz my java script crap isn't working. I know how to do pop ups, they are easy, right? Well then why won't they work for me now? The only one that works right now is 'junkie'. The first two won't work and I didn't bother making pop ups with the rest, cuz why bother w/ something that's not working?

*breathes*

Ok, time to go take a happy pill. Are you in?

I'm sorry DrBoff, I didn't meant to be a big downer in your thread. *kicks herself out*

[Jess]

Oh wait. I wasn't finished blabbering yet.

Thank you for your kind comments on the photos. I couldn't say what I wanted to say with words, so I just took some photos and hoped someone would get the drift.

I'm not evil tho, I promiss. Cuz I'm too nice. I care too much. Too open, too everything. Too awake. Too tierd.

I'm will move the contact link.

Oh and to touch on Boff's current living sittuation. Don't fret. Cuz I've been there. You will find a new place to live. And maybe you won't lose the next one. Thank goodness for couches and bad motel rooms.

[DrBof]

im living on a sofa @ the mo and will be for some time me thinks ... until glastombry ... maybe ...

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any person or persons reading this message should be aware that i do not apologize for any Spelling and / or grammer errors and / or incorrect inappropriate use of the english (or any other for that matter) language
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[kurisu]

back at ya!

[DrBof]

i got to be like one of the only homless ppl in the world w/ a web site

[Spitfire]

Jess : yes you are. I know true evil when i see it And yes, i am in for a happy pill...

Bof : join the club. Amsterdam has so much dirt-cheap internet cafe's that every homeless bum has a website

[Jess]

Hey, I was homeless with a web site for awhile. Kind of playing gypsy for about 5 months.

[DrBof]

oh guess im not then

i have a choice to make...im not sure what to do...it's been in the making for a while...i was never sure...see ive been working for about a year i had a flat i went to work every day i stoped taking drugs i went to bed @ resnable hours and now i can see that growing up to soon just demoloshes your personality...i have no room to grow no room for expression...so i have been considering going to art collage to open a rout to personal expantion...the podige leaves every thing to look for him self...it's sommin that i feel i should have done before i came to work
it was a choice and i took the glittering prizes of the carrier...but the maybe i should step out of the wind that is blowing me towards the fate of the buissness man...before it turns into a gale uncontollable...im staking my for seeable on my need to express...

Choice :
1.) Stay @ work (working my young life away)
2.) goto art collage in nottingham looing my lots of freinds, my job, my _internet connection_, my web space and letting every one down (in a sence)

[Spitfire]

The last option. Never let YOURSELF down, fuck the rest.